We've been waiting for this day. A day full of hope and excitement. Excitement that has been building for some time now. One simple wish is all it takes. It must be from the heart. It must be perfect.
Later today Make a Wish will be here. Her name is Pat and she has been assigned as Jophies Wish Representative. I spoke with Pat today. She seemed very sweet as we talked a bit about what Jophie likes. What are his favorite things? What does he like? As I sat there listening I was thankful. Thankful for my son. Thankful I was chosen to be his mom. Thankful for the relationship I have with my son. Thankful that even though he can not speak, I know exactly what he likes and dislikes.
We talked a bit more and then came the question. The one question I knew would come. "What does he want for his wish?" And then it hit me. Jophie is getting a wish! What was I going to ask for? Had I thought this through well enough? I've had weeks to decide. Why oh Why do I do these things? I stumbled and stammered naming all the ideas we had come up with in hopes of compiling these into Jophies perfect wish. It worked! She plainly stated what we had been thinking all along.
Jophies perfect wish. A hot tub.
There its done! I've named it so it must be real.
Our conversation ended with directions to our house followed by a sweet goodbye. I sat there still not fully comprehending the enormity of it all when once again it hit me. Jophies getting a wish! My excitement was soon overshadowed by a wave of sadness. You see as exciting as this is, with it comes the realization that "my child" is getting a wish. Not just one perfect wish but one last wish. A wish granted to only those kids whose lifes will be cut short. Could this possibly be my child we are speaking of? My son couldn't be "one of those kids" Could he?
Yes, he is. And there it was.
All those emotions I so carefully tuck away and avoid are now exposed for all to see. If I don't go there or entertain those thoughts then it couldn't possibly be so. Right?
Pat is real. Jophie is real. Make a Wish is real and tomorrow we will be asking for Jophies perfect wish and that too is real.
So for this day I am thankful for Make A Wish. They are a wonderful organization that over the years have continued to bring smiles to hurting children and their families. And as I face tomorrow I will be thankful for another day with my sweet Jophie. Thankful for his beautiful smile and especially thankful that as Jophie and I travel through this scary jungle, we both continue to be carried in the loving/healing arms of our heavenly father.